Late night thoughts

Why does it feel solitary?

When he says or did something that hurts me..

Whenever I get mad..

I'm the one feeling forsaken

I feel sorry for getting hurt 

and getting into another fight.

Why I am like this?

I need help, I really wanted to.

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9/22/16 10:40pm Just about to sleep

Process of staying calm

It feels good that slowly I am improving my self control over anger.

Way back, whenever I gets mad at him, I nag and nag him to make me feel better, 

and it was really hard for me. 

But now, when I burst my anger I can now stay calm afterwards.

I can even think of different ways to understand him.

This is what I really pray mostly to God.

That every time we fight, give me understanding and self-control.

For sure I'm on the process of  staying calm whenever we fight in the future.

Praise God. 

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At my office table 9/21/16 2:30pm