Late night thoughts

Why does it feel solitary?

When he says or did something that hurts me..

Whenever I get mad..

I'm the one feeling forsaken

I feel sorry for getting hurt 

and getting into another fight.

Why I am like this?

I need help, I really wanted to.

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9/22/16 10:40pm Just about to sleep

Process of staying calm

It feels good that slowly I am improving my self control over anger.

Way back, whenever I gets mad at him, I nag and nag him to make me feel better, 

and it was really hard for me. 

But now, when I burst my anger I can now stay calm afterwards.

I can even think of different ways to understand him.

This is what I really pray mostly to God.

That every time we fight, give me understanding and self-control.

For sure I'm on the process of  staying calm whenever we fight in the future.

Praise God. 

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At my office table 9/21/16 2:30pm

Better Adjustments

Living the life were we both belong

Paperwork and medicines contradicting

the court and the ball.

For the love, we manage to enjoy 

the adjustments and to stay strong. 

Time management and communication 

was the KEY.

Plus our Loyalty, Faihtfulness and Trust

to each other.

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Before going home 9/14/16 6:02pm

HOPES up

Giving all my hopes up to the Lord

and trusting Him 

on whatever struggle I'm facing.

Started my day right today.

Feeling happy, blessed and contented.

Enjoying the flow of this river in my life.

Feeling the soft breeze of the air on my skin. 

Reminding myself that I'm alive,

I need to enjoy.

Face all the fears. And Trust HIM.

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At my Office Table 9/13/16 1:48pm

EMPTY

Why am I feeling so empty inside?

This overthinking makes me worry..

Worry about things, small things.

I know its wrong, I wanted this to stop.

But HOW??

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At work 9/6/16 2:28pm

Across HIM

Around 1:41 pm, sitting ACROSS HIM

Wondering what us going on his mind?

Having self doubts, "does he love me?"

Or "does he really love me?"

Insecurities and jealousy increasing

Thinking what could be the situation

If I met him earlier before them?

Feeling intoxicated.

How can this be cleanse away? 

Is it good?

That every time we're together 

I can't help myself staring at his face?

Memorizing every bit of it?

Having the fear of...

"How long?" and "Until when?" 

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At SB Rob Otis 9/3/16